To 14th LEOs: I miss you, I miss those times. To 15th LEOs: I hope it helps.

See my card making for kids in hospitals, meaningful huh? It's an activity carried out by a community service club in ISU. Indeed it's a meaningful work.. But you know what, I was actually doing it all by my own. Although i felt really happy because i manage to continue community serving here, i felt disappointed at the same time for I haven't meet passionate people in doing charity works like LEOs did, yet.

There were only ten few people turned up for the card making activity. Well, number always doesn't matter, as long as everyone put their efforts in it and do it sincerely. Disappointingly, i saw most of them kinda like doing their own thing, talking to their own friends, sitting and doing works at their own table, and after a while, when they started feeling bored, they say 'Bye!' and went off. This was only a 2 hours activity, from 5pm to 7pm, yet how many people tend to stay until the event ended?

I realized how hard it is to meet people who are having the same ambission, same passion, keeping the same spirit as we do, doing the same thing together, trying to achieve the same goals together. All i wana say is, please appreciate and treasure every moments when you guys are doing events or hang out or even just having a meal together.. cause you will never know whether you will meet any person like them in the future. 

Back to the story, I insisted to stay until the event ended. There were two girls sitting beside me, and they left at around 6pm. I was like 'wow, leaving this early?' they said 'oh,we were here since 5pm and now it is 6pm! We've been staying for long'. I feel like wana tell them, 'oh i was here since 5pm too. - -..'
Be responsible. Once you have picked up something, make sure you finished it or bear with it till the end. Maybe it's boring, maybe it's tough, maybe it's annoying but well, you made the choice, be responsible.Kay fine, it's voluntary work we can't force anyone to do it, yaaaaaa 'cause people don't get pay ma!'. But you know what, If everyone practice the same altitude, i wonder how's the world gonna be in the future.

It was just a two hours activity yet it makes me thought of so many things, and missing all my times and people in INTI LEO so much.

I manage to 'make my ass sit on the chair until the end of the activity', but in my heart felt like leaving the room before it ends. Every participants have no interactions at all. Even the organizing team, they were sitting at a table interacting among themselves only. And i realized, people were not taking things serious enough, made me feel that i was one of the fool trying so hard to make the cards. However, there were still some people who really put efforts and stayed till the end of the activity and I thank God for that.. there are still people who really putting their efforts in this.


Things i wana bring out are: 
-Voluntary works are always not easy.. there aren't much people who really care enough and willing to involve themselves in it.

-And it's really hard to find a group of people, all working together like one, striking for the same goals. If you have found them, treat them well and cherish them.

-It's troublesome works and people don't get pay to do it. So be respect to each other, and appreciate every each of them because they can make their choice not to do it, but they didn't.

- DO NOT GIVE UP OR QUIT IN THE HALF OF ANY WORKS, unless you have a really good reason for it.  Work it out till the end.Well, in my opinion, reasons would be excuses.


Looking forward to meet better situations and good peoples in the future :). I'll keep my efforts on community services and i won't let it go no matter where i am.Hope for the best. And i hope this post could raise some consciousness of you, especially to my beloved juniors. I hope it helps. Cheers.



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Thank you!!

Life here so far so good. What I really feel grateful is, I have bunch of good friends. Each day talking to one of them even for a few minutes already make my days. Thank god I have them around every time when I feel alone.. I'm so motivated to get through everything after talking to them, knowing that I have so many supports and back ups and blessings from them and from my family.. And my relationships with my family really get closer and closer.. And life here is okay so far..and friends here are great :)

Again, I really have to say 'thank god, thanks everyone, for everything.


Ga yau!!

Living in my dream

So now yea, here I m, in my dream.
Yea dream, it was just a dream. But here I m on the land of United States. Still so unbelievable.
The beginning of my life here was abit dull cause I can't get to mix with the others.
Yet, I met a bunch of Malaysian and Singaporen friends and things start to turn interesting.

I met Fifa(not the soccer match FIFA). She's a Singaporean and she's a great girl. :)

She's sweet and she looks great, and she's so caring too. It's really a glad to meet her.


I met David, who calls himself 'the awesome'.. And he's only 19, so we call him kid.

 I met Patrick, Steve and Chee Kang and Arif are here too..

And i have whole bunch of awesome seniors, helping me alot. I met Tania, Zack, Kennard, Wilson and Ian too here. We cook and eat together, have outing together and it was really awesome.

I just moved into my room few days ago.. And I have to say, I got two really helpful and kind roommate.. One of them is Corigne, and another is Rebecca.. They are friendly and sweet,indeed. Thank God.

Just had my first day of classes and it wasn't bad.. It was okay.. I got to noe some people but not so familiar with them yet.. But nvm, more yet to come I believe.. It's just the beginning..

I feel really feel thankful for everything going back to the right track.. Hopefully it'll go even better in the future.. Thank God for arranging me everything.. Before coming to US, I actually have chosen a twin sharing room. But accidentally they assigned me an apartment with single private room, and I didn't realized until I moved into my Dom. It sucks making mistake like this but i realized that's the room and environment I m looking for and, most blessed one is I met good roommates.

And at the begining, I can't really able to mix with people but thank God, again, I met Fifa and the others.. We encourage each others, have fun together, have meals together and that really make me feel much better and warmer on this strange land.. At least I now I'm not alone.

I needa thanks my parents the most actually. Thanks them for sending me this far to study.. It needs a great deal of money but they still willing to send me over here.I'm so lucky to have parents like them. I know i'm even luckier to have chance studying abroad, so I'll try my best to do the best achievements.

It's hard when u need to start everything all over again, from zero. Finger crossed, pray for things to get better and better.. It might get tougher in the future but i'll try my best to overcome and go through it..

I miss friends in Malaysia and I guess I had really missed out a lot of great moments with people in Malaysia. But anyway I started a new life right here, and I gotta move on. Pray that the day to meet all of them in Malaysia again would b near.

Pray for my parents, my family, my friends, my new life, my studies, my everything.
Move on! Fighting!


'Your dreams in your heart lies within reach, if you believe in yourself.'


Cheers : )





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2011

It's really a brand new year for me.
I'm in Us now, like, so unbelievable. But it just happened.
THe journey coming to US was 'adventurous', i can say.

But anyway we still make it to be here in Des Moines,Iowa State.

Tania and zack have been treating us really well, helping us in everything and allowed us to live in their doms.
This is the third day here and i feel time pass really slow here.

Iowa is not a town city and hence it has nothing much here. Life is kinda boring although we have potluck with Tania and Zack's friends but i think it doesn't make any difference.

We are new and i find it kinda hard to mix with people here. They know each other and when they talk to each other we have no chance or don't even know how and what to talk to the others. I found it kinda lonely here. Hopefully things will get better after Orientation on next monday.

I somehow find it Homesick-ing and Friendsick-ing. But i wouldn't want my family to be here because the weather here is really terribly cold, although it doesn't snow (yet). And like what i mentioned, life here is really boring, i think it's because without friends. Even going potluck or party, i don't know people there and found it kinda hard to mix with people.

If i can ever advice a parent for their sons and daughters' studies, i'd probably tell them don't let your sons or daughters go abroad especially United States which is so far far far away. Feeling not right but i barely have people to talk to. Plus you have to sometimes 'pretend' you're doing well when people asking 'how are you'.

I don't wana make this trip sad, i hope things will get better. Losing my confidences and feel really stressed here even i haven't start to go to classes.





Somehow i feel like hoping my crazy friends in INTI and Seremban are here. Thay can just make everything fun even when it has nothing interesting. I miss them. Of cause my family members. I know it's third day only so i guess things will get better soon. Not hopefully but PLS DO GET BETTER THANKS!

2.5 yrs. Hey time, fly faster pls! HOpe everything will go great. Praying hard for that.. I hope i cant find my own position here. So may God help me,Amen.




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