It was a meaningful camp, and i always know it is.
This was my last children camp in INTI.
I was a PR and i really paid a lot of efforts on this post..
I want the event to be succeeded.. Bacause this was the event which made me stay in LEO Club, until now.
Walking along with you.
I wasn't the facilitators and i expected i wouldn't cry.
But end up i still cried.
First cry was during the sharing section.
When it reminded me that my time left in INTI wasn't much. It's only half a year to go..
Second cry was when sending the kids back..
Looking at the scenario but we i can't do anything, this really made me feel so sad.
All these angel faces should deserve better living, better treatment.
I do not care how heavy the works are, how much efforts i have to put in.
I do not care, how many works stuck during the hectic period and really really tensed me off.
WHAT I WANA SEE IS JUST THE SMILE OF THE KIDS.
It worth everything back.It really did.
All these smiling faces, worth all my hard works.
Sometimes i'm wondering, if we can show our love straight forwardly to a kid, which we don't even really knows him or her, why don't to the people you love too?
Cherish the one you love.
You can miss or even cry for a kid which you only met or knew them for three days, why not to your love ones, who's always staying beside you, supporting you when you need them?
Love the one you love, before it's too late. We always do not have much time left.
It's a bit sad, seeing vous, holding the kid's hand, talking to him heart to heart. I realized we never had this kinda section before.
Stupid jealousy. haha..
And I guess we wouldn't have it either, in the future..sometimes things changed without your realize.
We are just too not honest to oursleves.
Cheers to Children Camp 6, you guys all ROCKZ!
Thanks to my group member who's fighting all along with me, YI WEI, DVD DAVID, JUN HONG, JACKSON and specially thanks to KAH MUN, AH CHUA, IRIS and WAN THENG. Without you guys, Our Public Realtion job wouldn't be done so smoothly..! You Guys ROCKZ too! LOVE u all! :)
Monday, June 28, 2010
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
another pointless post, just meant to write it. Bear with me.
Do not ask me what makes me rely so much more frequently on my blogspot.
Perhaps i don't have people to rely on, or
Perhaps i just need somewhere to share out my feelings.
Again, it's 4:04am, waking up early in the morning to finish undone things, as usual.
I have worked pretty hard for this semester, unintended-ly.
Perhaps just something had happened, makes me feel like making myself busy is the best way to actually stop me frm thinking about those negative things.
So that was yesterday, i got a pretty good results back frm my history midterm, and did a pretty good job for my talk show presentation.
Things always goes in this way. When you lose something, then you'll gain something back. When you gain something, you have to give up something.
okay fair enough. If things really need to go in this way, and now all these performances are the things which i got back in returned, i deserve to lose something as important as this too.
Again, i know, i guess some close friends knows realized it too. When i posted a post in blogspot, means it's my the time i started to think negatively. And hence I need somewhere to throw out all the negative thinking. So i guess all the recent posts are gonna be 'negative abit' cos i'm throwing my negative power out tho.. LOL
The loneliest situation is:
Smiling to people, being cheerful like usual, but actually feel damn like crying, and you don't know when are you going to collapse. And you shouldn't collapse. People expected you won't and you tell yourself you can't. You have to move on. And then it is when you are so hurt, badly, and you need time to get yourself recovered (God Knows how long it'll take), but you have to act like nothing happened and 'i'm okay already lar' and 'come on u think i'm that useless? I'm Fine!' but actually you are really that stupid useless which can't forget about everything,bad things sad things heart broken things. I have so many people around me, accompanying me but i still feel lonely. My heart has been so far away until no one can actually catch it and knows what's on it. Even myself.
Feel like sleeping. So that i won't think too much. But i have to carry on with my stuffs. zzz
Life's always like that. Helpless, but you still have to move on.
Perhaps i don't have people to rely on, or
Perhaps i just need somewhere to share out my feelings.
Again, it's 4:04am, waking up early in the morning to finish undone things, as usual.
I have worked pretty hard for this semester, unintended-ly.
Perhaps just something had happened, makes me feel like making myself busy is the best way to actually stop me frm thinking about those negative things.
So that was yesterday, i got a pretty good results back frm my history midterm, and did a pretty good job for my talk show presentation.
Things always goes in this way. When you lose something, then you'll gain something back. When you gain something, you have to give up something.
okay fair enough. If things really need to go in this way, and now all these performances are the things which i got back in returned, i deserve to lose something as important as this too.
Again, i know, i guess some close friends knows realized it too. When i posted a post in blogspot, means it's my the time i started to think negatively. And hence I need somewhere to throw out all the negative thinking. So i guess all the recent posts are gonna be 'negative abit' cos i'm throwing my negative power out tho.. LOL
The loneliest situation is:
Smiling to people, being cheerful like usual, but actually feel damn like crying, and you don't know when are you going to collapse. And you shouldn't collapse. People expected you won't and you tell yourself you can't. You have to move on. And then it is when you are so hurt, badly, and you need time to get yourself recovered (God Knows how long it'll take), but you have to act like nothing happened and 'i'm okay already lar' and 'come on u think i'm that useless? I'm Fine!' but actually you are really that stupid useless which can't forget about everything,bad things sad things heart broken things. I have so many people around me, accompanying me but i still feel lonely. My heart has been so far away until no one can actually catch it and knows what's on it. Even myself.
Feel like sleeping. So that i won't think too much. But i have to carry on with my stuffs. zzz
Life's always like that. Helpless, but you still have to move on.
Monday, June 21, 2010
Things have been tough.
But i still gotta move on. No choice.
I'll try my best to bear with it..
But seriously, i need a lot of encouragement and accompaniment.
Everything's so uncertain, i feel so insecure.
Trying hard to be 'i'm fine' but it's still heavy for me and i can bear it hardly.
No collapse no collapse.
What a hectic period. What a critical moment.
I hate when everything messed up together.
But i still gotta move on. No choice.
I'll try my best to bear with it..
But seriously, i need a lot of encouragement and accompaniment.
Everything's so uncertain, i feel so insecure.
Trying hard to be 'i'm fine' but it's still heavy for me and i can bear it hardly.
No collapse no collapse.
What a hectic period. What a critical moment.
I hate when everything messed up together.
Saturday, June 19, 2010
Live without regrets.
Just two days before, i met an incident which i never encountered before.
It was horrible, and it really scared me off.
I just cant stop my tears from dropping down, when i was actually trying to call my mom up and told her about it.
But this incident made me realized and understand somethings.
What else could be better, than you're still breathing, and your heart's still beating? And you can still hearing your daddy mommy's voices, still joking around with your friends and still lying on the bed, facebook-ing?
Sometimes, no matter how careful you are, you still have the chance to get into trouble because others are not as cautious as you do. All you can do is be much more alert and careful to avoid some idiots doing idiot deed.
The past one week was a tough week for me. I used to be so emotional during that week, because of my studies and some personal problems. And today, after that incident, i suddenly realized that life is so fragile, like glasses. You can break into thousand pieces just maybe in few seconds with one hit and it'll not gonna give you any signal before it happens. I knew that,of course, everyone knows it. But today, i experienced it.
Cherish. Appreciate. I knew this very long time ago and i can say i oways do appreciate and cherish for what i have and thank God for everything. Now, i know this even well. Every second, minute, hour, every single person, every single matter in my life are so important to me.
Live with no regrets.
Say 'I love You' to the person you love, before it's too late.
Give a hug to your friends, thanks them for being part of your life.
Hug ur parents, say 'thank you' to them and give them a kiss.
I'm gonna treasure every single moment which i'm going to have with my family, my friends.
Really thank God. For giving me everything, even the bad things.
Nothing's tough when you've gone through the toughest situation.
Cherish everything, before it's too late.
Thank God.
Cheers! :)
It was horrible, and it really scared me off.
I just cant stop my tears from dropping down, when i was actually trying to call my mom up and told her about it.
But this incident made me realized and understand somethings.
What else could be better, than you're still breathing, and your heart's still beating? And you can still hearing your daddy mommy's voices, still joking around with your friends and still lying on the bed, facebook-ing?
Sometimes, no matter how careful you are, you still have the chance to get into trouble because others are not as cautious as you do. All you can do is be much more alert and careful to avoid some idiots doing idiot deed.
The past one week was a tough week for me. I used to be so emotional during that week, because of my studies and some personal problems. And today, after that incident, i suddenly realized that life is so fragile, like glasses. You can break into thousand pieces just maybe in few seconds with one hit and it'll not gonna give you any signal before it happens. I knew that,of course, everyone knows it. But today, i experienced it.
Cherish. Appreciate. I knew this very long time ago and i can say i oways do appreciate and cherish for what i have and thank God for everything. Now, i know this even well. Every second, minute, hour, every single person, every single matter in my life are so important to me.
Live with no regrets.
Say 'I love You' to the person you love, before it's too late.
Give a hug to your friends, thanks them for being part of your life.
Hug ur parents, say 'thank you' to them and give them a kiss.
I'm gonna treasure every single moment which i'm going to have with my family, my friends.
Really thank God. For giving me everything, even the bad things.
Nothing's tough when you've gone through the toughest situation.
Cherish everything, before it's too late.
Thank God.
Cheers! :)
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
原来喜欢要学会放手
上一个星期是我最难熬的一个星期。
一堆一堆的功课，考试，压力把我给压得喘不过气来了。
可是与此同时，我还得一直在猜想，猜想到底我俩之间发生了什么事。
这让我心里这狭隘的空间更煎熬。
一起外出的那几天，心里一直闷闷不乐。
还是在猜想，到底我们怎么了，到底你怎么了。
我们是陌生人吗？怎么比陌生人更尴尬？
身边的朋友都很明显地感受到了我沮丧的情绪，因为我真的很沮丧。
谢谢大学里，学生宿舍的保安阿姨。
竟然连她也会在无意的聊天中，跟我说远距离的关系不容易保持。
我说你讨厌我了，
身边的死党先生告诉我，你是不知道该如何面对我。
我说你根本活得好好的，只有我一个活在沮丧中，
身边的死党先生告诉我，男生即使多不开心也不会让别人看见。
我说我的心觉得痛了
身边的死党先生说，你也是心痛只是没有表现出来。
这很像是一堆安慰我，让我好过一点的借口？
有时候会想说，
当我很想你的时候，你也在想我么？
当我拿起信息犹豫不决该不该发出去的的时候，你有在等我的信息么？
当我看见我俩像陌生人一样，心在默默的痛时，你也跟我一样么？
当我因为你而很煎熬的时候，你也一样么？
当我远远默默看着你很开心地与别人玩着，脸上也会泛起一丝微笑时，你也有否这样偷偷看着我？
很想把一切当成我想太多，可是身边还放在床上的，你送我的礼物；信息箱里你发过的信息；手提电脑里，你发的短片，脑海里一幕幕开心的记忆，却确确实实的证明了一切是那么的真实。
可能像死党先生说的，要体谅你的处境，要知道你这么做的苦心。
原来喜欢，要学会放手。
原来爱，要学会放手。
想通了。也明白了。也有不明白的，可是已经不重要了。
可是放手原来也不容易。
每每想到要努力把自己抽出习惯性的，与你一起的世界里，就觉得好不舍。
还是不明白，为什么互相喜欢的人不能在一起。
但是我还是会。
可能更好的女生更适合你。
至少不比跟我一起一样，得辛苦的维持。
这篇部落格，将是一个总结。
以后不会再有这样的解释，这样抒发。
泪干了以后，还得继续的前进。
祝福你。
还有，最后一次的。我喜欢你。
一堆一堆的功课，考试，压力把我给压得喘不过气来了。
可是与此同时，我还得一直在猜想，猜想到底我俩之间发生了什么事。
这让我心里这狭隘的空间更煎熬。
一起外出的那几天，心里一直闷闷不乐。
还是在猜想，到底我们怎么了，到底你怎么了。
我们是陌生人吗？怎么比陌生人更尴尬？
身边的朋友都很明显地感受到了我沮丧的情绪，因为我真的很沮丧。
谢谢大学里，学生宿舍的保安阿姨。
竟然连她也会在无意的聊天中，跟我说远距离的关系不容易保持。
我说你讨厌我了，
身边的死党先生告诉我，你是不知道该如何面对我。
我说你根本活得好好的，只有我一个活在沮丧中，
身边的死党先生告诉我，男生即使多不开心也不会让别人看见。
我说我的心觉得痛了
身边的死党先生说，你也是心痛只是没有表现出来。
这很像是一堆安慰我，让我好过一点的借口？
有时候会想说，
当我很想你的时候，你也在想我么？
当我拿起信息犹豫不决该不该发出去的的时候，你有在等我的信息么？
当我看见我俩像陌生人一样，心在默默的痛时，你也跟我一样么？
当我因为你而很煎熬的时候，你也一样么？
当我远远默默看着你很开心地与别人玩着，脸上也会泛起一丝微笑时，你也有否这样偷偷看着我？
很想把一切当成我想太多，可是身边还放在床上的，你送我的礼物；信息箱里你发过的信息；手提电脑里，你发的短片，脑海里一幕幕开心的记忆，却确确实实的证明了一切是那么的真实。
可能像死党先生说的，要体谅你的处境，要知道你这么做的苦心。
原来喜欢，要学会放手。
原来爱，要学会放手。
想通了。也明白了。也有不明白的，可是已经不重要了。
可是放手原来也不容易。
每每想到要努力把自己抽出习惯性的，与你一起的世界里，就觉得好不舍。
还是不明白，为什么互相喜欢的人不能在一起。
但是我还是会。
可能更好的女生更适合你。
至少不比跟我一起一样，得辛苦的维持。
这篇部落格，将是一个总结。
以后不会再有这样的解释，这样抒发。
泪干了以后，还得继续的前进。
祝福你。
还有，最后一次的。我喜欢你。
Thursday, June 3, 2010
Recently :)
It's 3rd June 2010.
Time flies, as i always like to mention, it's already June. Half a year has past.
New short semester started, and this sem i m taking United Nation History and Public Speaking, two subjects which can able to kill me if i have no enough revisions and preparations. LOL. And yea, Dr Borges is Fun, but somehow his lectures make me feel so sleepy but the sad thing is I CAN'T SLEEP OR I DIE. Hahaha! And the Public Speaking class is fun too, and i have YiJun as my classmate this sem :)
It's already the second last semester in INTI. And i had a wonderful birthday before I leave to US. There was whole bunch of people, who were trying to give me a surprise one day before my birthday but eventually iknew it before the surprise turned out but i still appreciate it alot, very much :) Thanks Zhu Whee, for the video, the cake, the chocolates, the pair of earings and most importantly the Heart. Always feel Glad to have him around ..
That was the first one, i received a rather big surprise after that, unpredictable ones. Thanks to Ah moi, which she has helped those people so muchhhhh on passing everything and planed everything for me. I received a soft toy and a bouquet of roses from a special person, and a special video too, which meant alot to me. Touching, appreciate it alot.
Besides, i receive a bag from Jackson, an octopus soft toys from Mun Mun, a cute rabbit cell phone hanger (blink-able) from Ern Chai, and a nice 'L' letter Necklace form my dear Pearly. And my mom quietly asked my cousin to bought me a BB-Cream, which she thought i'm not gonna know it until she gave it to me, but my cousin told me about this before i got it. LOL. Still, Thanks to mummy, Love ya lots.
There will be Toefl in one week's time, and i still haven't start with the practices and revisions yet. :S
Gonna start it during the study week and hopefully i can pass it with a good grade.
And follow on will be the application to US. This is a messy thing. And, i hesitate when i actually know i'm qualified to make the application. That feeling was so weird. Somehow i think i'm afraid of somethings. And because of some issues i do hesitate for some moments. To go? Or not to go? Anyway i still made a decision, which i chose to move on.. I believe if things belong to you, no matter how far you go, how long you move, eventually it will still go back to you. One day, soon. That's what i believe, and i'm looking forward to see what's gonna happen up next.
And it's tonight! The LEO Club Gathering night. Squeezing my brain now to think of appropriate topics for my major presentation and for the discussion tomorrow at 8am. I have to finish it or i can't enjoy myself during the gathering night. Idea idea ideassss Please Come To meee! And oh ya, hopefully it's not gonna rain tonight!
That's all for the updates. Hoping for the best ;)
Time flies, as i always like to mention, it's already June. Half a year has past.
New short semester started, and this sem i m taking United Nation History and Public Speaking, two subjects which can able to kill me if i have no enough revisions and preparations. LOL. And yea, Dr Borges is Fun, but somehow his lectures make me feel so sleepy but the sad thing is I CAN'T SLEEP OR I DIE. Hahaha! And the Public Speaking class is fun too, and i have YiJun as my classmate this sem :)
It's already the second last semester in INTI. And i had a wonderful birthday before I leave to US. There was whole bunch of people, who were trying to give me a surprise one day before my birthday but eventually iknew it before the surprise turned out but i still appreciate it alot, very much :) Thanks Zhu Whee, for the video, the cake, the chocolates, the pair of earings and most importantly the Heart. Always feel Glad to have him around ..
That was the first one, i received a rather big surprise after that, unpredictable ones. Thanks to Ah moi, which she has helped those people so muchhhhh on passing everything and planed everything for me. I received a soft toy and a bouquet of roses from a special person, and a special video too, which meant alot to me. Touching, appreciate it alot.
Besides, i receive a bag from Jackson, an octopus soft toys from Mun Mun, a cute rabbit cell phone hanger (blink-able) from Ern Chai, and a nice 'L' letter Necklace form my dear Pearly. And my mom quietly asked my cousin to bought me a BB-Cream, which she thought i'm not gonna know it until she gave it to me, but my cousin told me about this before i got it. LOL. Still, Thanks to mummy, Love ya lots.
There will be Toefl in one week's time, and i still haven't start with the practices and revisions yet. :S
Gonna start it during the study week and hopefully i can pass it with a good grade.
And follow on will be the application to US. This is a messy thing. And, i hesitate when i actually know i'm qualified to make the application. That feeling was so weird. Somehow i think i'm afraid of somethings. And because of some issues i do hesitate for some moments. To go? Or not to go? Anyway i still made a decision, which i chose to move on.. I believe if things belong to you, no matter how far you go, how long you move, eventually it will still go back to you. One day, soon. That's what i believe, and i'm looking forward to see what's gonna happen up next.
And it's tonight! The LEO Club Gathering night. Squeezing my brain now to think of appropriate topics for my major presentation and for the discussion tomorrow at 8am. I have to finish it or i can't enjoy myself during the gathering night. Idea idea ideassss Please Come To meee! And oh ya, hopefully it's not gonna rain tonight!
That's all for the updates. Hoping for the best ;)
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