It''s been 3 monthes, since the regular classes started.
But it's like so long to me. It's like years.
So many things. Non stop.
Now's like a zombie, walking, moving around with a body which without spirit and soul.
Sick of all these. I don't really like this kind of lifestyle. Don't like.
It's like going back to secondary school life again, the busy, stressed life.
I'd rather be nobody. It's really irresponsible to say so but somehow, i really think so.
Gotta tired of all these sooner or later, i guess.
Assignments, tests, events, meetings, burn midnight oil, wake up early to study etc etc etc
It's like i never been doing anything for myself.
I did all da things because of responsibilities. Is it?
I have no idea.
Dun like to be emo and dun wan to be emo.
But just feeling so down and so tired recently.
Even feel lazy to smile around.
Like what pris say, which i agree with it so much,
when you're not alrite at all but u gotta tell ppl that ur alrite, it's really tiring.
i dun have any stamina to do tat anymore.
Cheers. May GOD bless me.
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Monday, February 15, 2010
updates.
It's New Year Break, finally!
It was a really terribly busy period before the break. Finally i can free from tests, assignments, homeworks, meetings and events ,temporrorily. haha..^^
Before the break was the Valentine's Sale. We met lotsa difficulties and conflicts during the sales. But anyway, it strengthened our relationships and we became closer after the events. It's my pleasure and i feel really glad that people willing to share their feeling with me.. I know everyone has been so stressed up and i think i'll continue being the person who oways caring and cheerful. I wana see the smiling faces of my frens :)
And then it's the Valentine's and i'm still single after all.. ^^
Glad to noe someone has already found another girl, and at least i didn't hurt him. haha..
received some V's gifts like necklace, cards, flowers, keychains but the most special and warm one will be the bouquet of Sawi and the card from LEOs. LOL. Really sweat, but thanks for that, guys! It's really warm and love u guys lots :) It's much more better than any other's. :)
We went to "Lao Sheng' just now, really had a good time. Love my family lots. Lots lots.
Can't able to attend the gathering few days later cos m gonna hv vacation to Thailand with my family. Missed my secondary school frens alot. We hvnt been seeing each others for one whole year. I missed pearly, yen qun, elaine, liang bo, wai keong, nicky, chee khoon, etc etc etc.. alot. Sandy has just gone to Adelaide n i guess i'm gonna miss her lots. Missed ppl who's already at abroad, or already transferred to other colleges, lots too.
..顺其自然
It was a really terribly busy period before the break. Finally i can free from tests, assignments, homeworks, meetings and events ,temporrorily. haha..^^
Before the break was the Valentine's Sale. We met lotsa difficulties and conflicts during the sales. But anyway, it strengthened our relationships and we became closer after the events. It's my pleasure and i feel really glad that people willing to share their feeling with me.. I know everyone has been so stressed up and i think i'll continue being the person who oways caring and cheerful. I wana see the smiling faces of my frens :)
And then it's the Valentine's and i'm still single after all.. ^^
Glad to noe someone has already found another girl, and at least i didn't hurt him. haha..
received some V's gifts like necklace, cards, flowers, keychains but the most special and warm one will be the bouquet of Sawi and the card from LEOs. LOL. Really sweat, but thanks for that, guys! It's really warm and love u guys lots :) It's much more better than any other's. :)
It's Chinese New Year and this year we can't visit much cos my granny just passed away. It's a custom and we have no choice but to follow it. Adults oways so persist in all these.
Love CNY so much cos it reune all my sinlings and relatives. Love the time when all of us sitting and chit chat together. feel so warm. Feel so happy to see all my cousins have already found their couple and my dearest sis is gonna get marry soon. We went to "Lao Sheng' just now, really had a good time. Love my family lots. Lots lots.
Can't able to attend the gathering few days later cos m gonna hv vacation to Thailand with my family. Missed my secondary school frens alot. We hvnt been seeing each others for one whole year. I missed pearly, yen qun, elaine, liang bo, wai keong, nicky, chee khoon, etc etc etc.. alot. Sandy has just gone to Adelaide n i guess i'm gonna miss her lots. Missed ppl who's already at abroad, or already transferred to other colleges, lots too.
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I hope it is but sadly we aren't. Let it be.
可能放弃不是不勇敢，而是不想让自己受伤害的勇敢行为。
放弃也要很多的力气。
Too shy to ask, too proud to lose.
..顺其自然
Thursday, February 11, 2010
Have faith!
i'd like to share a story here. It's from a video clip.
There's a girl, who is the management from a company, and her daddy is a chef. She always meet up with lotsa difficulties and problems in the company.
One day she was mumbling again, to her father: 'Once a problem has been solved, another bigger problem is turning up. Sick of all these.'
The father think and keep quiet for a while,and brought his daughter to the kitchen.
He started to boil a carrot, an egg. Later on,he made a cup of coffee.
When everything's done,he asked the daughter :' Now tell me honey, what can you observe from these things?'
The daughter answered: ' The carrot becomes softer after it's been boilted; hmm.. the egg becomes harder after it has been boilted, while the coffee.. hmm..(she tasted) wow, dad, Nice coffee!'
Daddy:' See, the carrot used to be so rigid but it became so soft after boilted. And the egg, it used to be so fragile, and now it turn to be so rigid after boilted in the water. The coffee, it supposed a normal pure water but now, it's a cup of nice smooth coffee.'
''The difficulties and the problems that we are gonna meet in our life are like the water; and the carrot, egg and coffee represented different kind of people with different kind of attitude when facing all the problems. It depends on yourself, whether to be the carrot( which become so soft and fragile when facing all the problems), the egg (which become tougher and more rigid when meeting up all the difficulties) or the coffee (which can able to change the bad situation into a better situation). ''
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When you meet problems, it depends on you whether to take it as a challenges, beat it down or treat it as a burden, and let all the difficulties to beat you down. Goes on, with your faith and confident. trust yourself. We are unique and special, we need to be more confident with ourselves. Get through the challenges, and you'll feel the different in yourself. Ganbateh all. :) Learning it too.. :)
There's a girl, who is the management from a company, and her daddy is a chef. She always meet up with lotsa difficulties and problems in the company.
One day she was mumbling again, to her father: 'Once a problem has been solved, another bigger problem is turning up. Sick of all these.'
The father think and keep quiet for a while,and brought his daughter to the kitchen.
He started to boil a carrot, an egg. Later on,he made a cup of coffee.
When everything's done,he asked the daughter :' Now tell me honey, what can you observe from these things?'
The daughter answered: ' The carrot becomes softer after it's been boilted; hmm.. the egg becomes harder after it has been boilted, while the coffee.. hmm..(she tasted) wow, dad, Nice coffee!'
Daddy:' See, the carrot used to be so rigid but it became so soft after boilted. And the egg, it used to be so fragile, and now it turn to be so rigid after boilted in the water. The coffee, it supposed a normal pure water but now, it's a cup of nice smooth coffee.'
''The difficulties and the problems that we are gonna meet in our life are like the water; and the carrot, egg and coffee represented different kind of people with different kind of attitude when facing all the problems. It depends on yourself, whether to be the carrot( which become so soft and fragile when facing all the problems), the egg (which become tougher and more rigid when meeting up all the difficulties) or the coffee (which can able to change the bad situation into a better situation). ''
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When you meet problems, it depends on you whether to take it as a challenges, beat it down or treat it as a burden, and let all the difficulties to beat you down. Goes on, with your faith and confident. trust yourself. We are unique and special, we need to be more confident with ourselves. Get through the challenges, and you'll feel the different in yourself. Ganbateh all. :) Learning it too.. :)
Saturday, February 6, 2010
我怎么了？
不是不喜欢 而是不确定那人也是不是喜欢而怯步不前。
不是不敢主动 而是害怕失去而停止前进。
其实也不是那么的无所谓那么的随缘 而是害怕受伤而假装不在乎。
其实也不是不在乎 嘴里说who cares其实心里在乎得要死。
其实也不是那么的花心 我就是这样的个性我能拿我自己怎样？
其实那个性也不叫花心 别人就是喜欢我我能怎么办？
其实不是跟每一个异性都很好，其实心里只有一个人，其他人只是想让那个人知道其实我很不错。
也不是只想让那人觉得我很不错才对其他喜欢我的人好 真的不想伤害别人才继续对他们保持一贯的态度。因为我知道被拒绝的感觉真的很伤。
其实好多次想拿起手机发‘我想你’ 可是信息都存到了草稿箱。
其实不是没有想过以后会怎样 有期待但还是别期待那么多，要不然失望也会那么多。
总是口是心非 明明心里因为你说的话而开心得要死，嘴里却在挖苦你。
当你说称赞我的话时总说你在撒谎 其实是自己太没有信心了，认为你这么说只想让我开心或是玩玩而已。
其实不是不向前进，而是每当看见那人的眼神总还是落在某人身上，就会退缩。对人冷漠就是对自己保护。没有希望也就不会失望。心痛的感觉一点也不好受。
每当那人不开心时总想陪在哪人身边 但结果总是装作不知道那人的不开心而走开。
好了，你不安慰那人，另一个人趋前问那人怎么了，你却又不服气，心想怎么那人不找你倾诉却找别人。
有其他喜欢那人的某女生，主动积极，心里就想着要放弃了，想着‘随缘吧’..其实心里气那女生气得快爆了。
其实一直在说服自己说我不在乎，‘有就有嘛，没有也没关系’，是正确没错但那话有一部分只是对自己说的借口。
其实每一次都很想伸手把那人抱着。
其实想那人眼里只看着我一个。
其实在等着那人主动发来的简讯。
天啊。我怎么了。
不是不敢主动 而是害怕失去而停止前进。
其实也不是那么的无所谓那么的随缘 而是害怕受伤而假装不在乎。
其实也不是不在乎 嘴里说who cares其实心里在乎得要死。
其实也不是那么的花心 我就是这样的个性我能拿我自己怎样？
其实那个性也不叫花心 别人就是喜欢我我能怎么办？
其实不是跟每一个异性都很好，其实心里只有一个人，其他人只是想让那个人知道其实我很不错。
也不是只想让那人觉得我很不错才对其他喜欢我的人好 真的不想伤害别人才继续对他们保持一贯的态度。因为我知道被拒绝的感觉真的很伤。
其实好多次想拿起手机发‘我想你’ 可是信息都存到了草稿箱。
其实不是没有想过以后会怎样 有期待但还是别期待那么多，要不然失望也会那么多。
总是口是心非 明明心里因为你说的话而开心得要死，嘴里却在挖苦你。
当你说称赞我的话时总说你在撒谎 其实是自己太没有信心了，认为你这么说只想让我开心或是玩玩而已。
其实不是不向前进，而是每当看见那人的眼神总还是落在某人身上，就会退缩。对人冷漠就是对自己保护。没有希望也就不会失望。心痛的感觉一点也不好受。
每当那人不开心时总想陪在哪人身边 但结果总是装作不知道那人的不开心而走开。
好了，你不安慰那人，另一个人趋前问那人怎么了，你却又不服气，心想怎么那人不找你倾诉却找别人。
有其他喜欢那人的某女生，主动积极，心里就想着要放弃了，想着‘随缘吧’..其实心里气那女生气得快爆了。
其实一直在说服自己说我不在乎，‘有就有嘛，没有也没关系’，是正确没错但那话有一部分只是对自己说的借口。
其实每一次都很想伸手把那人抱着。
其实想那人眼里只看着我一个。
其实在等着那人主动发来的简讯。
天啊。我怎么了。
Thursday, February 4, 2010
随性的.randomly
我曾深刻体会 对爱感到胆怯 还好有懂我的你 给我安慰
看你失落的脸 又再为爱憔悴 我心痛的感觉竟如此的强烈
眼角的泪 它给过谁 伤透了心 也无所谓 我会愿意 静静地 陪在你身边
如果说爱 已不可为 那我宁愿 藏心里面 其实我害怕会失去你的感觉
怎么会开始对你有了感觉
又深怕朋友默契转身不见
矛盾着犹豫不决
没准备
跨越爱的界线
怎么会开始对你有了感觉
深陷朋友恋人之间的危险
进与退 被爱包围
谁犯规 都狼狈
谁能解围 让一切完美
怎么会开始对你有了感觉
深陷朋友恋人之间的危险
你和我 拥抱瞬间
不后悔 这暧昧
星光唯美 把爱放心里面
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最近常放歌曲的mv和歌词在blog里，不是为了要开个排行榜，而是因为很多感受没办法说出来，可是有些歌曲却能很贴切的形容心里的感觉。
这首歌，真的很符合我现在的感受。
顺其自然~
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
是不是等我离开了，你才会感动？
某一天，你拨我的电话号码，语音告诉你我已经停机。你会不会难过？
某一天，你的手机不再频繁的响起，你会不会不停的等待？
某一天，你的邮箱收件箱里，不再有人可怜兮兮的说你好吗？你有没有好好吃饭，有没有好好照顾自己。你会不会不停的期盼？
某一天，不再有人无论是深夜还是白天都坐在电脑旁等待着你上线，等待着可以打电话给你，你会不会失落？
如果真的到了那样的一天，我还是希望你有一点点的难过，一点点的失落，一点点的想我，只要有一点点关于我的记忆就好，真的只要一点点就好。
某一天，你打开电脑，我的头像变成了永远的灰色，不要说我不守承诺，那是我感觉到累了，倦了，也真的受伤了。
某一天，你的生活中没有了我，请记住我对你的好；我的宽容。你要记得，我们虽然在地球的不同角落，但是我们头上顶着同一片蓝天。
某一天，你的记忆中没有了我，不要忘记我们在一起的每一分每一秒，不要忘记我喜欢什么，讨厌什么。
而我无论如何都不会忘记任何一个关于你记忆的片断，你习惯什么，反感什么。
感情世界里，没有“公平”两个字，我不会计较这些，我们在一起的时间，会是我这辈子里最美丽的回忆。
我还要你记得答应过我什么，许诺过我什么。
如果有一天，你叹气的时候我不再去安慰你，你难过的时候不再陪你一起难过，心碎的时候不再去陪你一起心碎。
那是我真的绝望了，真的心碎了，真的疲倦了。
因为有太多太多的时候，我都是装，总是装作无所谓，可是我真的不在乎吗？而你呢？会在乎我的一切吗？
可是我会很自责，会恨我自己，因为我做了一个不守承诺的人。我懂，其实都是我不好，我不该出现在你的生活中，我只该做一个默默爱你的人，默默等你的人，默默想你的人。可是我把一切一切都表现了出来。你知道了，清楚了，了解了，最终感动了没有？
是不是等我离开了，你才会感动？
- Article's quote from Adam Gan's blog -
某一天，你的手机不再频繁的响起，你会不会不停的等待？
某一天，你的邮箱收件箱里，不再有人可怜兮兮的说你好吗？你有没有好好吃饭，有没有好好照顾自己。你会不会不停的期盼？
某一天，不再有人无论是深夜还是白天都坐在电脑旁等待着你上线，等待着可以打电话给你，你会不会失落？
如果真的到了那样的一天，我还是希望你有一点点的难过，一点点的失落，一点点的想我，只要有一点点关于我的记忆就好，真的只要一点点就好。
某一天，你打开电脑，我的头像变成了永远的灰色，不要说我不守承诺，那是我感觉到累了，倦了，也真的受伤了。
某一天，你的生活中没有了我，请记住我对你的好；我的宽容。你要记得，我们虽然在地球的不同角落，但是我们头上顶着同一片蓝天。
某一天，你的记忆中没有了我，不要忘记我们在一起的每一分每一秒，不要忘记我喜欢什么，讨厌什么。
而我无论如何都不会忘记任何一个关于你记忆的片断，你习惯什么，反感什么。
感情世界里，没有“公平”两个字，我不会计较这些，我们在一起的时间，会是我这辈子里最美丽的回忆。
我还要你记得答应过我什么，许诺过我什么。
如果有一天，你叹气的时候我不再去安慰你，你难过的时候不再陪你一起难过，心碎的时候不再去陪你一起心碎。
那是我真的绝望了，真的心碎了，真的疲倦了。
因为有太多太多的时候，我都是装，总是装作无所谓，可是我真的不在乎吗？而你呢？会在乎我的一切吗？
可是我会很自责，会恨我自己，因为我做了一个不守承诺的人。我懂，其实都是我不好，我不该出现在你的生活中，我只该做一个默默爱你的人，默默等你的人，默默想你的人。可是我把一切一切都表现了出来。你知道了，清楚了，了解了，最终感动了没有？
是不是等我离开了，你才会感动？
- Article's quote from Adam Gan's blog -
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